It should say: “Don’t worry. I have my Garmin. I’ll tell you when to stop running.”
Carly sent me a message the other day asking if I was intersted in running further than a 5k with her and Mary on Saturday. I’ve now run a 5k about 6 times and after doing it on Sunday, its starting to feel not deathly. Carly suggested about 4-5 miles and to see how I felt. Tempted.. I posted on FB and was quickly “encouraged” by Crossfit Jay to hit a 10k. 6.2miles. WTF! I know he has been encouraging me to do this ever since I hit my first 5k back in February. But REALLY… there is NO WAY I can double my distance… or so I thought.
Jay and I joked around the last few days about it, and he turned down my oh so nice invitation to join us at 7am… I even offered to do it later with him :) But Jay knows what I can do and how to encourage me to do it.. he know I will always to my best to step up to a challange and prove to myself that I can do it. Things may not be pretty.. but I sure try my hardest! At last nights WOD, Jay was going around telling people that I was running a 10k today… I laughed still not TRUELY believing it myself.
Well i woke up this morning and got a encouraging fb message from julie telling me to “wake up” ;). I got my but out of bed and headed over to the bike bath.. Mike and Walter ran ahead like the machines they are.. and Mary and Carly and I started out. They asked how far I wanted to go and I told them lets just keep running. Id decide later how I was feeling and if I was going to crazily attempt the 10k. In my head I told myself I could walk 3 times, if needed. I also told them not to tell me how far we had gone, or how much longer we had to go! MENTAL.. I know thats my biggest struggle! I often doubt my abilites. Dont tell me and I wont ask
As we ran we talked about everything under the sun… and before I knew it we were turning around. I hadnt stopped once. Ok I have done the 3.1 a few times.. my body is use to it now… NOW was the tough part. As we continued to run, I really couldn’t believe that I was STILL RUNNING! I def was starting to get more out of breath, but I was stilll moving and keeping up with them (gotta love them for slowing thier pace for me)! Next thing I knew I could see the parking lot… PHEW!!!…. not so fast…. Mary informed us we had to keep on going alittle to make it a FULL 10K… so we went alittle further and turned around and then we were done.. Not sure the exact time but it was 1hr 14 mins and change.. so about a 12 minute mile. Ill take it! I was amazed I did it.. and DIDN’T STOP ONCE!!! I just kept trotting along! I never ran out of gas….
….. until I got to my car! Yep I went to start my car.. and was out of gas! It was kinda ironic because I had been telling people just yesterday that I have no desire to run more than a 5k, because I have a car and if I was going more than 3 miles.. I’ll drive! Apparently my car ran out of gas before I did! All I could do was laugh! Luckily my parents came to my rescue and brought me some gas… but I took that time as I waited to really think about how far I have come.
My goal for the 90DC was to be able to run .5 mile by March 31st.. and here it was April 28th and I had just finished my first 10K! If you ever told me that was possible.. I would have said you were crazy! If you had told me to even run a mile on January first I would have said you were crazy for even THINKING I could! But now when Crossfit Jay throws up a challange to me, no matter how crazy it may seem… I stop and think to myself… “Might as well give it a try”. So often we fail to believe in ourselves and our abiliites.. that THAT is what prevents us from doing things.. not out PHYSICAL abiliites. Its the MENTAL bullshit that impeeds our progress and from reaching our goals. Sometimes it takes just one person, or in my fortunate situation MANY other people who believe that you can achieve something… that gives you just enough hope and belief in yourself… to get out there and TRY something.
I’ve come a long way in the last 8 months… looking back it really is pretty crazy to see how much I have changed. Not just physically… which is dramatic.. but more so MENTALLY. I actually believe in myself now and when I don’t, my friends help me believe just enough to let myself TRY something that I didnt think I could do. I am proud of how far I have come, and want to do my best to encourage others to reach thier goals as well. It may mean being there to talk about someones diet, or cheering them on during a wod. It may be encouraging them to try a new class… or just to get off the couch. I guess I’m just trying to “pay it forward”, since SO MANY people have been so encouraging and supportive of me throughout this process.
I still have a ways to go.. and will prob never be “content” with where I am… but if we aren’t striving to be better or make our lives better.. than whats the point of living? Goal is to lose 25 more lbs. Im currently stalled at -55lbs … but I know Im making improvements… my endurance has proven that… and post wrist sprain, I am FINALLY starting to get the weight back on the bar… and I have become SMART enough to adjust it during wods at needed so I dont reinjur myself. Oh and I actually take rest days now!
So.. not running out of gas on my run.. yet running out of gas when i got into my car… was actually much needed, as it gave me the time to really think about this journy and how far I have come so far
Im so lucky to have such amazing friends, family and coaches, and friends who are like family… who have helped me and believed in me so I could believe in myself.. Love you all